For once the focus is on: ME

Dear, You know who you are, I am not who I use to be. I have changed my life from when you knew me. I am not that person. You may think of me in such way, don't. Forget that person. That person is gone, they have been shed. I am a newer, better, more reformed person. I am a beautiful daughter of a Heavenly King. I am not innocent, I have learned. I am not perfect, nor to I intend on being. I have moved toward great works. I have decided that for once, I put the focus on ME. I am no longer surrounded around you. I no longer think about you the way you think I do.
I do not expect you in my life anymore, for you have walked away. I cannot change the things that have happened, but i can change my outlook on life. You are still living in this world where you think I am still trying to be in, well I am not. You can let that idea go, because I'm gone. Im done trying to fix things. Im done trying to make it better. I'm done focusing on you.
Because you are no longer in my life, i have seen things more clearly. I can breath. I know my future will be better, it will be free, free from you. This is my final "goodbye" although there is nothing to wish upon a goodness of saying bye to you. Farewell, only because i believe in karma.
May the wind be in your face, so sand will get in places you never knew existed. The sun in your eyes, so you will squint and get wrinkles faster. And May the rain fall upon your nicely kept suit, just because i think that would be funny. I wish a farewell upon your departure. My heart releases all of everything you meant to me, only to make room for someone who deserves it. I hope the door smashes your head on the way out, maybe it will pop it back to a normal humble size. Sincerely, The girl you never had, and will never see.

Twinkle Twinkle little star

When i was little, someone told me to make a wish on the first star i saw to appear for the night. So, i wished for happiness. I've probably made a billion wishes on happiness alone. I couldn't tell you how many times Ive wished upon the first star i see appear for the night. I never wished for ridiculous things, like a million bucks. Although, it would be nice. It was always simple.

Happiness comes and goes. Im usually pretty optimistic about life, and when i get down it only takes a second for me to get back up. Right now, i would say im the happiest ive been in a really really long time. So granted, that wish i know without a doubt will always be true.

For so long, since i was 15 or so, i have wished for the "Prince Charming" to find me. This one might seem ridiculous to some, but its every girls wish. There were a few that could have fooled me, but soon were revealed to be fakes, or frauds. One might have been close, but not close enough. As i got a little older, my dreams of the handsome man arriving on the white stallion were diminishing. I started loosing hope and stopped wishing.

About a year and a few months ago, One night, while sitting in my bed, i was looking out my window- the stars were beautiful. Of course there were about a trillion of them, not one was the "first star" to be seen for the night. I closed my eyes and wished for the world to send the right man to me. I could have repeated it a hundred times, maybe even fell asleep saying it over and over. After that, i continued on with life with this thought in the back of my mind, always wishing on that "star".
A few charmers, but surely not any of which were near prince, came, and went. I still carried on.

Months passed, and i was so busy looking up wishing, and waiting. I forgot to look in front of me. Eventually the slight tap on the shoulder and a clearing of a the throat caught my attention. (Okay...so it might have been a little more noticeable than that.)

Well, world, thank you. My wish has been granted. Now i am happy, and he is here!